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looking at other couples makes me sad.

I've become pathetic, like I didn't think I ever would be.
I guess being single is only fun when you have someone you want to be single with, which sounds silly I guess.

I'm bleeding from the ear.

GENITALLLSSSSS

Eric is such a selfish ass who can't admit that he is!
I can hardly stand the kid anymore, I don't see why I like him.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCKING HELL AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I need to get the fuck away from fustration because it happens almost everyday now.

I can't even take myself seriously.

Eric and I got in a fight tonight and broke up.
Over my computer, because appearently he's allowed to tell me not to fuck around on his computer, but I can't because appearently I'm computer illiterate.
He treats me like I know nothing, and I hate that.
It's so irritating, but I've already been getting sort of pissed of at him for letting his temper fly.
If he can't keep from saying asshole thing then he shouldn't have a girlfriend.
and he never appreciates the things I do for him anyways, like how I'll always give him the better end of any acitivty we do.
I even pick out the better end of food to give him.
it's just so...aggravating.
and like he said, if he doesn't want to see my ugly face, then some other fucking guy will.
I hope he has fun finding another girl to put up with his temper and having to remind him when he's being disrespectful shit.
I'm just so angry.

hey, I can't tell what this thing on my arm is.
it might be a rash.
It's been there for like a week.
HERPES?

Eric!!!!!
comment on my livejournal for some sort of communication!

I didn't do ANY of my project today but I got two big ass books on Rome from the library....
then I went to tiff's and we all went out for icecream.... Andrew Mo makes me want to Sodomize a cow....
then after we went to Icon... but appearently i forgot to lie about my age and we didn't have enough money.. so like... we left... lol..... from now on I'm just always going to say I'm 14.....
then since we couldn't do the Icon thing we went to eric's..... and there was just alot of games in general since they had the gunbound rotation because we couldn't use the other computers....
oh and guess what, I'm still sick ~_~.... because SOOOOMEONE got me sick...
well.... I'm tired and going to sleep now...
Happy Easter to you all.... 42 minutes ago jesus came back to life as a bunny that hides colorful eggs in your backyard and makes your parents buy you things... isn't the thought creepy that alot of you are sleeping while Jesus is running around as a bunny in you're backyard hiding painted eggs and chocolate...O_o "daddy can I have a glass of water, and there's a bunny outside"

:: t o k e n ::

Well today i woke up and went to my desk.... then I looked at my desk.... and there was this big ass bug... so my mom killed it.... but anyways....
for today I'm pretty much stuck inside doing my Latin Cereal Box project (Mrs.Adams should burn in hell)..... I hope I can get it finished.... >_<
But I guess harvard square was fun enough so I haven't wasted my weekend..... yeah, I bought spaz juice and got to see this old guy spend like a half an hour in the adult section of this comic store.....lfksd;F
oh and also, I think I'm dying.... or someone got me sick because my throat is dead and I kept sneezing yesterday....mrrr

:: t o k e n ::

Well my day got better, tonight since I couldn't really go out Marissa, Melissa and Chrissy came over and they are KICK ASS FRIENDS! I told Chrissy and Marissa about my dentist screwing up and the oral surgery on the phone so they got me flowers ^_^ it made me feel ALOT better.... KICK ASS.... actually most of my friends are pretty kick ass because I'm usually not friends with people who aren't.... ^__O

so yeah, and tomorrow I get to goto harvard square! ^__^ given I wont be able to enjoy some of the foods there it's still awesome~

:: t o k e n ::

Okay, so I woke up happy because I have a dentist appointment to get three teeth pulled which I don't care about and I got to skip school.... well in the middle of pulling of my teeth I hear a crack in my mouth... then a oops... MY DOCTOR FRICKIN BROKE MY TOOTH, HE ONLY PULLED OFF THE TOP AND THE ROOT WAS JAMMED.... so while the novacane was in effect they rushed me to an oral surgeon where he did a better job and faster giving me stitches and pulling out the root than the doctor did just pulling it.... so yeah.. no solids for three days and stitches for a week.... whoopidydoo...

So I went to tiff's after school today..... and yeah i fell asleep for a while... then later eric came... then we went to the talent show at BHS which it what I have to bitch about today....

FEEDBACK SUCKS.... They play OTHER people's songs and they just stand there.... I have to admit they played their instruments well but when they tried to sing I couldn't hear much and what i could hear made me wince.... they didn't get the crowd going they just stood there and played, and most likely most of the crowd ONLY went for the Skunkees. The Skunkees however (this isn't even biased on the fact the drummer's my brother)were AWSOME! They have kickass ska-punk songs that they WRITE THEMSELVES, they jump and bounce and they rocked the crowd! Some girl even threw her underwear at them and steve played with it on his head! DIDNT SEE ANY UNDERWEAR BEING THROWN AT FEEDBACK!When feedback won all I heard were boos and you sucks and A HELL ALOT OF SKUNKEES fan cheers~
oh and guess what I found out.... the only reason Feedback won was because the judge doesn't like my brother and his group of friends because they have individuality.... I think we should all make some sort of petition or all make something for the Skunkees to show them they really should've won.... they kicked ass and now they're all flipped out because they thought they sucked... I saw my brother and steve and brian in my driveway when I got home and they were so sad.... so tell me if you'll do it....

:: t o k e n ::
(FEEDBACK SUCKS)


okay well also to lori- thanks for the help! you're ALWAYS there for me and you seem to make me a better person..... it's rubbing off on me!(I saw your xanga and htought you deserved it^___^)
and good luck to eric on his strength test tomorrow~

"HEY STEPH DID YOU HEAR FEEDBACK"
"YEAH THEY SUCKED"
.....yeah

JFFHDSJFHJDFHJDHFJD

I'm a frickin rollercoaster- retraction retracted.... still angry though, it's the principle of the matter....
but I learned a new word today- milieu ^_~ try using it sometime

I retract my update from yesterday.

I can't take it anymore.... it may just seem like adolesence angst but I can't...there's too many fucking pressures.... first there's the top one that some people know about..... then there's my parents which is just getting to me, my dad isn't as bad but my mom treats me like I'm the most dense irresponsible person ever, like I don't know whta's for my own good.... then there's all this other crap upon crap.... I can't take it anymore. My life is just ten shades of gray..... I don't understand how people can be so perfect and happy and well adjusted...I can't stand it anymore....

Update:
well I feel alot better thanks to talking to tiff, chrissy, and lori.... and a really screwed up chat that made me happier... I solved most of my problems and had one of those annoying rational conversations with my mom instead of the usual yelling.....^_^ love all of you guys~

"This is your life and it's ending one minute at a time"
Life's hard, I have bad luck. We just have to deal with it.
"Fuck Martha Stewart"

well lately I've been pretty out there because of some things.... wow that explains alot...
but oh well, I'm getting my stuff together right now for Ronise's retro party tonight. I'm going 80's punk^_<
whoopdy doo....